i'm killing myself

I'm killing myself
using substances that should not
but who cares for tomorrow
if it is pleasing to me now
so I smoke, I drink, and more
and do not care if I die because of this
I want it now just one more time
To Satisfy me by last time
Lie!
you want today, tomorrow and forever ...
and it'll consume more and more
and will become a monster inside of you
until you lose control
and kill until you love the most
is nice now?